Life changes you.

Life changes you. The things that seemed so important in the past are somewhat simple to achieve now. And goals and aspirations are tempered by time and priority. What do I have enough time to do with my life and how important is it to accomplish. I have had success and I have failed. I have loved and I have been lonely. I have had extreme happiness and extreme sorrow. In all of this all I really know is that I am. 

I know how to love even if it hurts. I have learned to cry uncontrollably and laugh passionately, all the while accepting the fragility of existence. And so I now must set goals to use these precious life's gifts for a new direction on the forked path to tomorrow. All the while, I must first and foremost KEEP LAUGHING AT MYSELF.

It is two in the morning as I write. This is the time I use to go to bed, lol!  Oh, I get plenty of sleep because I am in bed by six in the evening some nights and can't remember the last time I saw ten p.m. I find that the solitude of quite mornings suits me nicely. I have the luxury of curling back up in bed if I choose or just beginning the day  fully relaxed. The greatest gift I now afforded myself is the luxury of personal space. I enjoy the company  of other people but do not need them to complete myself. I like being with me. When we are young and struggling to become whole, others help define who we are. Our family and friends are very important. Life then defines the purpose of these relationships. The strong bonds will stand the test of time. Weak links will vanish into the past; lessons learned. I am very fortunate to have a core of strong relationships to sustain my social needs. This is where I now choose to focus my energy, one heart beat at a time.